Thursday, May 17, 2012

things i'm afraid to tell you

{Image via Ez}

I'm sure by now that you are very aware of this Things I'm Afraid to Tell You movement started {unintentionally} by Jess and spread by Ez. Meg started the most recent wave of posts and after reading through all of the posts from the participating bloggers, and other inspiring entries from Nikki, Liz, and Carly, I decided to suck it up and post my own.

So here it goes...

Despite being a straight-A and honor roll student in grammar school and high school, I really struggled in college.

I have no idea what I want to do in life or what career I want. I majored in International Relations in college and thought I wanted to have a career in a related field once I graduated. Wrong. I hated my major and often wish I had switched when I had the chance. Now, a year after graduation, I'm still unsure of what career path I'll be taking. I wish that I could incorporate all of my interests and hobbies into a job that I love, but I have yet to gather the courage to take that leap of faith to do something on my own and that I love.

I don't know how to ride a bike. Or do a cartwheel.

I have a hard time making and keeping friends. I can be shy and awkward when I first meet people and I don't always do such a great job of keeping in touch with people. This doesn't always bother me though since I'm an only child and I'm so used to doing things by myself. I've never had any issue going to movies alone, shopping alone, eating at restaurants alone. In fact, sometimes I prefer it to being with a group of people.

Sometimes I think that I've let my parents down and that I'm not doing enough to make them proud of me.

I'm very particular about my things. I like things to be in a certain order and arranged in a certain way. It makes me a difficult person to live with.

I don't like to let people borrow things. If you ask the sorority sisters that I lived with during my senior year, they will tell you how true this is. Unless I trust that a person will return it to me as soon as they can after they finished using whatever it is I let them use, I don't really lend things out.

I've struggled with my weight and self-image issues for as long as I can remember. It's a constant thought in my mind and has bothered me all my life. So much so that I often cry about it. I was always the girl surrounded by thin and fit friends but could never attain that myself. It took going to my doctor after graduating from college and hearing a number that I am extremely ashamed of to finally get my butt into gear. I'm still not comfortable with myself or the way I look. I still have days where I get upset with myself over how I look, but I think I'm getting to a place where I can be happy.

I hate doing dishes. But I love doing laundry!

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Take a look at these other wonderful and inspiring bloggers shared!

Bloggers Who Participated in Wave No.2:

Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg: MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Victoria: Vmac & Cheese / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup  / Sue: The Zhush / Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Monika: The Doctor's Closet / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It's Awesome / Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz: So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio  / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic

Bloggers Who Participated in Wave No.1:

Design for Mankind | Little Brown Pen | Beautiful Hello | Curating Style | Sweet Fine Day | The Jealous Curator | Happy Days | Sage & Berries | Really Handmade | Peck Life | Satsuma Press | Rena Tom | For the Easily Distracted | The Hemborg Wife | Vitamini Handmade | Courtney Khail Stationery and Design | Meg in Progress | Dando Photography Blog | Widdershins22 | Alison Citron | Pink Moon Daily | Just Pretty Things | From China Village | Tea with Me | The Darling Ewe | Not Your Average Ordinary | The Electric Typewriter | Elleby Design | Parsimonia {Secondhand With Style} | Life as an Artistpreneur | Hello Cupcake | Dellie | The A & B Stories | Pretty Little Things | Feistyelle | Nib & Zed | Well and Cheaply | I Ripple. I Dance. | Whitfield Awesome Blog | Foxtrot Press | Dry As Toast | The List of Now | Apple Blue | For the Love of | Four Flights of Fancy | Miss Modish | Snapshots & Secrets | Dirty Laundry | Bubby & Bean | Penelope's Press | Little Nostalgia | Vale Design | Pikaland | Fleurishing | Print Pretty | Vespa Tales | Hazel & Agnes | Amanda's Musings | Mo' Funk Designs | Ordinary Mommy | Camp 1899 | In Honor of Design | Liberty's Yarn | Love, Life & Pictures | Stacey Winters | Owl in the Rain | Living Life Creatively | Emma Elizabeth Clease | I Live in Vacouver Now | British Cream Tea

4 comments:

  1. I hate dishes and love laundry too! haha Seriously though, glad you were inspired and I hope this was therapeutic for you too. I love how similar we actually all are.

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  2. I did this today too!!! Love. I can't do cartwheels either!!

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  3. I can't let people borrow stuff either! my one step-sister always wanted to borrow stuff & I had such issues with it. maybe if I grew up with sisters I'd be better about it now!

    I also love doing laundry!

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  4. Nice post! Enjoyed reading your blog and following you. Keep in touch okay.

    silvia
    www.poisepolish.com

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